Y.O.U

"We all want power, we all want success, but the ultimate reward is the simple joy of understanding." - Paul Krugman

Could you understand me well, see what others cant see, and enlighten my life?

The Story of Despair and Sorrow

/I/

"My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains

         My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,

Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains" 

- John Keats, Ode to Nightingale

I always remember those words..

It is like a lullaby for me.. led me to drown in despair and sorrow..

this numbness and loneliness i feel in this life..

made me think that get lost in a dark forest is a better option..

/ii/

'Yesterday, All my troubles seemed so far away, 

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday..'

'so, tell me..and teach me..

how long i forgot to give you a beautiful and a sincere smile like this?

how long i forgot the feelings of warmth and the sweetness of love?

I think I had lost it all in the time streams and left it buried in the yesterday

with my soul. 

Because I  just don't believe in future, and don't care about the present

I'm the man who trapped in the past.

/iii/

One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:

'Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,

         But being too happy in thine happiness

- John Keats, Ode to Nightingale

Am I Drunk?