Y.O.U

"We all want power, we all want success, but the ultimate reward is the simple joy of understanding." - Paul Krugman

Could you understand me well, see what others cant see, and enlighten my life?

The Story of Despair and Sorrow

/I/

"My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains

         My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,

Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains" 

- John Keats, Ode to Nightingale

I always remember those words..

It is like a lullaby for me.. led me to drown in despair and sorrow..

this numbness and loneliness i feel in this life..

made me think that get lost in a dark forest is a better option..

/ii/

'Yesterday, All my troubles seemed so far away, 

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday..'

'so, tell me..and teach me..

how long i forgot to give you a beautiful and a sincere smile like this?

how long i forgot the feelings of warmth and the sweetness of love?

I think I had lost it all in the time streams and left it buried in the yesterday

with my soul. 

Because I  just don't believe in future, and don't care about the present

I'm the man who trapped in the past.

/iii/

One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:

'Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,

         But being too happy in thine happiness

- John Keats, Ode to Nightingale

Am I Drunk?

Life without Love

What is The Meaning of Life without Love?

Just like an empty Yankee Stadium...

Your Life might be fun, might be glamorous, and even full of glory and pride..

But All of The Feelings are  just a delusion, like an opium..

You are blinded by such a blink of bliss in your life, when in truth your entire life

does not mean anything except nothingness.

Your life is ike The Yankee Stadium in its true face, in an ordinary day when there is no match there

It is empty.

Couples

Which one do you prefer....

'To have such freedom, we had to suppress or overcome any possesivenes, any tendency to be jealous. To be free, you cant be passionate.' and 'My death wont bring us togther again. This is how things are. Its in itself splendid that we were able to live our lives in harmony for so long.'

or...

'.. I love thee freely, as men strive for right/ I love thee purely, as they turn from praise / I love thee with the passion put to use /In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith / I love thee with a love I seemed to lose / With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath / Smiles, tears, of all my life/ and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.'

Parallel Universe

Seandainya dunia paralel ini benar-benar ada...

Apakah kau dan aku akan dipersatukan disana?